Thankful Thoughts 5

I am a dreamer.  I dream pretty  much every night. Most of the time I'll remember them for a little bit or just bits and pieces and then I forget them. I kind of hate it because I wake up feeling like I did things instead of sleep.  Since becoming pregnant they have been more vivid and strange than usual.

And last night's dream was not great. In fact, it was really horrible.
It was very real and very scary.
I had a miscarriage.
And it was awful.
I woke up shaking and it took me a second to figure out where I was.
But then it came to me: I was in my bed, 3 little boys sound asleep, and 1 hubby already off to work. Darn it. I really needed a hug.
Relief flooded over me and I said a prayer of gratitude that I was, indeed, still pregnant.
This little lima bean sure has made things crazy,  exhausting, and I feel awful.
But I will take that, any day, over  having lost him/her.
I am so grateful to have this little one growing inside of me.