Thankful Thoughts 5

I am a dreamer.  I dream pretty  much every night. Most of the time I'll remember them for a little bit or just bits and pieces and then I forget them. I kind of hate it because I wake up feeling like I did things instead of sleep.  Since becoming pregnant they have been more vivid and strange than usual.

And last night's dream was not great. In fact, it was really horrible.
It was very real and very scary.
I had a miscarriage.
And it was awful.
I woke up shaking and it took me a second to figure out where I was.
But then it came to me: I was in my bed, 3 little boys sound asleep, and 1 hubby already off to work. Darn it. I really needed a hug.
Relief flooded over me and I said a prayer of gratitude that I was, indeed, still pregnant.
This little lima bean sure has made things crazy,  exhausting, and I feel awful.
But I will take that, any day, over  having lost him/her.
I am so grateful to have this little one growing inside of me.

Stuff

In my blog browsing today, I came upon a link to the blog Pancakes & Frenchfries.  I've never read her writings before and I don't think I'll follow a stranger. But I also don't think it was just a coincidence that I happened upon this particular post entitled Unstyled Life.
If you don't feel like reading it (though you should), she writes about a friend whose parents both died. It doesn't give specifics about their death, she talks more about the after. The cleaning up and going through all of their belongings. What if someone were to have to do that for you?
It was very thought provoking and made me think about how much STUFF we have that we don't need or use.
Then I read this comment from a  reader:

The more stuff you own, the more it owns you. I hope to always have what I need, but not much more. It’s part of why I like owning a small house, because it forces you to only keep what’s necessary. I don’t have a ton of room for junk. Honestly, if I could find a smaller house I would be even happier.



It was like a bolt of lightening lit up the room and I realized that I can be like that.  I can appreciate this house that is getting too small, that we will be bringing another baby home to. Another person to fill it with their junk, or not. I can be so very glad that we live here, because it can help me to become the organized, minimalist person that I want to be inside but haven't been able to translate to reality.
So I am off to purge some closets and truly get rid of those things that have been sitting, waiting for their day to be useful. Because it's not happening at my house, so I might as well give them their chance at another's.

Thankful Thoughts 3

Our disposal has been out. You don't realize how much you use something until you can't. 
So tonight I am beyond thankful for a husband who does the dirty jobs.
Cleaning out and fixing the disposal, taking out the trash, the diapers, the nasty stinky things, fixing the toilet, cleaning out our clogged up drains.
If it is gross, it is his job.
I know he doesn't like it, but he does it.
Because he loves me.
and I love him all the more for it.

Thankful Thoughts 2

This is going to be brief because I am so tired.
But today I am so thankful for technology. For the ability we have to keep in touch with those we love who live far-away. Between blogs, facebook, the telephone, texting, email, etc..we are able to know and see what's going on in their daily lives. I know there are definite negatives to all of this technology, but right now I am feeling so blessed that I have relationships with people I never would get to see or meet or visit very often, otherwise.

Thankful Thoughts

Well, there is no better way to get started again after a 2 month hiatus then to just get to it.
Since November is the wonderful month of Gratitude, I thought I would post my daily thankful thoughts.
My days have been long and tiring and it is so hard having Jeff gone as much as he is. SO. HARD.
This will be good for me to recognize that great blessings are mine and I have the choice to appreciate them or bask in self pity. I'm choosing the former.

My thankful thoughts today are centered on our health.
In a world full of scary things like cancer, major dietary allergies, and every type of disorder you can imagine, all five of us have our health. Wow. That is pretty amazing.
We have been blessed with  bodies that can walk, run, exercise, play hard, and do pretty much anything we ask of them physically. (age appropriate of course)
I have recently read of so many families whose children are born with heart defects, missing genetics that cause rare diseases, cancer, and loss of limbs, burn victims, and a plethora problems.  My heart goes out to them. I do not truly understand their pain and the daily frustrations they live with. But I sincerely pray for them, and hold my boys a little tighter when I realize how fortunate we are.
Trials come in many sorts and sizes.
I am so grateful that we have been blessed with our health.