Beginning again

It has been 5 months. 5 MONTHS. Wow.
These 5 months have been FULL.

Full of three little boys.
Full of a hubby and a home and all of the wonderful busy-ness of family life.
Full of loving my new baby & having fun with my boys.
Full of book parties. (a business I started when Ryder was 6 weeks old...what was I thinking?!)
Full of crocheting. A LOT. More than a lot: Preparing for the Bijou market (again, what was I thinking?!) Then filling 23 custom orders from the Bijou Market. Then filling 27 custom orders from my etsy shop before Christmas. It was awesome, overwhelming, and time consuming. But a blessing. Such a blessing.
Full of family visits:
July - Ryder born, my parents come visit.
Aug- Spent as much time as possible with Shar & Trav before they moved to CA.
Sep - Jonathan & Rachel get married. Entire Drysdale family comes to Utah. Ryder blessed.
October - Joe & Amanda and boys come visit.
Later in Oct - Shar comes to visit.
November - Bijou Market with Endeemade/Jeff goes to TX and returns with Mom & Dad D for Thanksgiving.
December - Mom & Dad A come for Christmas. Shar & Trav come for Grandma Anthony's funeral and spend the weeks after Christmas with us.

Because life was so busy and full, some things had to go. And blogging was it. I opted for time with my boys over writing about it. But now I'm back and ready to write about these moments before they are gone. One of the things I've realized over the last few months is that my family is more important to me than anything else. More important than money, than a job (even if it is from home), and more important than the time I am giving them. I can't be good at everything, but I want to the best at one thing. And that is being a mom & a wife. They are two different things, but they are me. Who I want to be.
This journal is my way of remembering that journey. My way of recognizing the good days & bad days and coming out on top. I don't want to forget about Ryder's sweet little sounds, and Tave's hilarious antics, or Weston's sweet and thoughtful words. I want to remember every bit of being their mom. And that means I have to come back here and write it down.
I want to be able to look back in twenty years and know that I did my best because I can read about it. I can read what worked, what didn't, and why I am who I am many years down the road.
So here's to the start of another amazing year.
You're welcome to come along for the ride. :)